Ok so i havent blogged in forever and now i find myself acting like a true Ebert, here i am its 2:52am and i cant sleep!!! why you ask??? because i am trying to solve all my problems and lifes problems all in one night and my brain is on overdrive! AGGGGGGHHHHHH the curse is finally hitting me! i cant believe it!!!!! So yes if anyone is wondering i am my parents child!!!!
So here is the life update! I am no longer getting married, Colby and I are no longer together and the thing that hurts the worse about it all is Haylie, i miss her more and more each day. but I pray for strength and hope that everything turns out all right. if nothing came out of my relationship with him the thing that i know did was that i was the best mother that i knew how to be to Haylie and i was the one there for her when noone else was I taught her right lessons, led by example and let her know and feel that she was loved no matter what! One of my favorite memories with Buggy was that I was the one that got to wake up with her when she turned 2. I have her on video blowing out candles so that makes me smile. so with that i can feel good that i sacrificed myself and everythign i had for a year for her. i loved being a "mother" to her and i cant wait till i can be one again.
Things with me are always up and down back and forth and side to side, I am thinking of moving to Logan to get back into the social life of things. i went recently to a great student ward that i absolutely loved! it was so nice to go to Relief Society and actually have girls there that were around my age! and to have lesons that are targeted toward us and what we are doing in our lives right now. so i am seriously praying and going to the lord to see if this is what i should be doing in my life right now.
i was able to go to bear lake with my one and only Sara and her kids and husband last weekend! it was really fun to get away swim in the lake and just enjoy the cabin and being away from everything. I am going up there again this weekend with Blaine and a lot of his friends so it should be pretty exciting. I also was lucky enough to have the day off on friday so i went with Sara and her kids to Wheeler Farm, we took a tracter ride, fed the ducks and geese, and just hung out. it was nice to spend some time with them
Sara, Kade and Preston
Me and my two favorite boys!!!!!!
Yeeeeehaaaaaaa!!!!
Ride em Cowboys!!!!So for right now my life has been flipped and turned upside down and i am trying to pick up pieces and put them back together again. I am told that the Lord doesnt ever give you anything that you cant handle so i am praying for the strength to handle my life right now because it feels a little overwhelming. But as Jonathan said in his farewell talk, "my sister is a strong black woman!" so right now thats exactly what gets me up in the morning!
I love you all!!!!!!!!
4 comments:
Yay for the update, bummer about the circumstances. I hope you eventually got some sleep. Just remember what I've been telling my Ebert for 10 years now: you don't have to solve it all in one night!
Love you and miss you!
P.S. For what it's worth, I always knew you were a true Ebert, deep down there somewhere ;) And I totally agree with Scotty!
I am sorry about how everything has gone lately but it sounds like you are on the right track to solving it.
I hope that you and Logan get a long well. She is wonderful in the summer and fall but a right beast in the winter. But I will say I love the social life up there. Good luck and I love you!!
I"m so sorry that things have been turned upside down for you. We need to get together before you decide to head up to Logan. I hope that things are starting to get better for you.
Sometimes we don't understand why things happen. It may be months or even years down the road before you know. One thing I know for certain is that EVERY thing happens for a reason and for our own experince. The bumps are preparing us for a grand assignment up ahead. You are beautiful and a lot of people love you!
Jody
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